1. Summer blooms 💛 July 20th.

  2. Quiet moment at the beach, beholding creation. July 15th

  3. July 15th- Torn


    July 15th- Torn

  4. Sometimes. it’s a whirlwind opera in my brain where I am so damn sensitive and self-centered.

    VBS. early work shift. whispers of you being not enough from different corners. The pat on the back that isn’t returned. the empty hollow of your half heart echoing back in the eyes and bodies of the children you teach.

    You can start new every day. Every moment. You can choose to fall down into grace knowing that you are an utter, stinking mess. Like a beggar showing up at a feast where everyone smells like perfume.

    That the main man of the party would come out, shower you, clothe you, feed you, and make you know that you are loved.

    I have a hard time believing this.

    I am having a hard time loving.

    It’s about those children. It’s about caring enough about what you DO. and understanding that it effects other people.

    He’ll take the broken, clumpy dirt mud, and turn it into a feast, a dance, a romp through the most beautiful meadow and refreshing ocean.

    So HIS word is life.

    Be the potter. Shape, smash, press, bake me in hot fire. To be the right kind of vessel.

  5. The humid air hit my face in a wave. The hot, oppressive weather and overcast skies reminded me of walking down the sidewalk in Shanghai. Yellow and sea green taxis swerving and honking, so many faces and all a blur, vegetables in a woven basket on the side of the road. 

    Strange, to be here now, with coworkers who are native Chinese still- even more compounding the Shanghai experience here in my office building in Cupertino. 

  6. Lying in the room with wet hair. making wine syrup to drizzle over peaches. Yesterday I wasn’t fully awake or aware in my conversations.

    Thoughts of renewal, surrender, pleasure, life, pain, death, marriage, all of that spins like a little tornado in my head.

  7. mangoes ~ theme: Gold
July 11, 2014

    mangoes ~ theme: Gold
    July 11, 2014

  8. July 10th- Sharp
Book: Ambition and Survival: Becoming a Poet. Full of words that cut deep past all the fake layers of the heart into the real flesh of life.
I enjoyed the chapter called…a Mile from Hell. He describes the missionaries that he meets as burnt and strange. An accurate depiction of how alien things can be when you step out of the country and the suburbia that California offers.

    July 10th- Sharp

    Book: Ambition and Survival: Becoming a Poet. Full of words that cut deep past all the fake layers of the heart into the real flesh of life.

    I enjoyed the chapter called…a Mile from Hell. He describes the missionaries that he meets as burnt and strange. An accurate depiction of how alien things can be when you step out of the country and the suburbia that California offers.

  9. Quiet time and prayer in a non-AC cafe in West San Jose, hiding in a shaded corner in the path of a ceiling fan. The ambiance of the cafe is cozy, with a few armchairs and a low coffee table, as well as tables scattered here and there.. And quiet, most studying or having personal conversations.  July 9~

    Quiet time and prayer in a non-AC cafe in West San Jose, hiding in a shaded corner in the path of a ceiling fan. The ambiance of the cafe is cozy, with a few armchairs and a low coffee table, as well as tables scattered here and there.. And quiet, most studying or having personal conversations. 

    July 9~
  10. July 9th 2014- Alive
Trying to think about other planets, other stars, other material places where you would not be able to breathe..

    July 9th 2014- Alive

    Trying to think about other planets, other stars, other material places where you would not be able to breathe..

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